December 2010
49 posts
I really could have done without today. It started off okay, but just ended stressfully, fully equipped with a killer headache and shitty mood. So many people have pissed me off. Asshole customers that for some reason think they’re better than me, and are going to tell me how I will address and speak to them. Really? How about fuck you. Last time I checked, I was making steady, decent money...
3D movies make me feel drunk, then my head hurts like I’m hungover afterwards. Ugh. I feel like shit, but, totally worth it. Another good “date” to add to the list :)
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I don’t deal well with feeling defeated, or like I’m heading down that road. I can’t accept it. I don’t know where to turn or what to do. I’m horrible at asking for any form of help, because I suck at it. I just really wish I had someone to talk to right now. I need to just vent about so much, maybe get a little advice. If I could go this with someone who relates to...
I wish some people would stop running away. Running doesn’t make you grow, it makes you shrink. You won’t get stronger because little pieces will constantly be falling away. And most of the time, those little pieces were people who cared.
Just lost my mind on someone who tries to take me for granted, and it felt fucking great. I’m pretty relieved. I’ve done it mildly for a while, but this time I blew up and lost my shit. Fuck you. I stand up for myself.
Sometime, all I really want is skin on skin. Being bare skinned, chest to chest on someone, with your legs all tangled, is one the best feelings ever.
I want you a disgusting amount. Every ounce of you. Shit makes me lose my mind.
Christmas wasn’t too terrible this year. Despite the rushing around since work doesn’t really allow for a ton of prep time. Dad’s side of the family was fairly decent this year. Huge surprise. They didn’t act like they totally hated mom & me being there, only slightly. Though I guess they know that she & I sit together around the table or on the couch talking mad...
Haha saw that someone else on my dash had done this, so I had to. Bringing back the old days of myspace surverys. Describe your mood in two words? Not sure. Reason being parts of me are pretty happy, some indifferent, but other parts are bummy. For your last kiss were your eyes closed and did you have to be on your tippy toes? Closed because that’s propper, and open just makes me feel...
Christmas shopping = done. Even treated myself to a little lingerie and a sexy dress for new years eve, even though I haven’t a fucking clue as to what I’m doing yet. Life is good. And I’m so excited for tomorrow I can hardly stand it. eep :)
On a different note, I forgot to express: A. These fleece sheets feel fanfuckingtastic when you’re naked. B. I’m still stoked over the fact that I got a stripper pole for christmas.
There’s so much brewing in my head, but I can’t get the words out, and even if I could, I don’t know how I would say them, I haven’t a clue as to where I would start. I hate that my speaking ability goes striaght out the window when it comes to more emotional and vulnerable subjects. Would someone please take apart my head, and make it work correctly. Check it’s...
“One of the best feelings in the world is when you’re hugging tight a person who you love with absolutely everything you have, and they hug you back even tighter.” You don’t even have to love them with everything you have. When you care about someone in general, it’s a grand feeling.
It’s funny how sometimes you want to know every inch of someone’s mind, but then once you’re in and you get an inkling of what goes on inside of them, you want to bolt as fast as you can. I’m glad I finally left. I don’t need to curse hindsight. I could only curse myself, but I won’t bother wasting that much time. I know I can do better than a mound of...
I’m thoroughly enjoying this feeling in my life right now.
I wish someone would buy me http://www.modcloth.com/store/ModCloth/Womens/Dresses/Set+the+Jewel+Tone+Dress And I wish I had somewhere to wear it haha
“Dear Men, if you are going to criticize a woman’s figure or any other aspect of her appearance please make 100% sure that you are Brad Pitt or Johnny Depp.” lolz. Even though I don’t really find either one attractive, so let’s change it to Gerard Butler.
Been nervous feeling all day, but at least now my headache has gone away. Still preeeetty antsy feeling though. Gah. This is just silly.
I think I’m majorly sleep deprived. I’m getting punch drunk. Mildly delerious. My feet are so cold I think they might break off. That made me think, I wonder what people would be like if they had hooves instead of feet. My shoe collection would be wasted. Fredericks of Hollywood is one of my favorite things ever. I wish I owned half of that website. So much lingerie. But what the hell...
